stuck.

In between to do what's right and
what seems to be most beneficial,
which sometimes is not supposed to.
some may understand by the term,
by right & by left.

I try to do things the right way,
but people seem to dislike me for it,
as i implicate it on them as well.
Doing the right things at times means more work,
a more troublesome approach at doing things.

It stresses me as I'm torn between.

Sometimes a cold shoulder treatment
because of doing the right things.

the irony.

confusing thoughts.

I have been having different thoughts.
Thoughts that seem to split me into two.
One is the compromising me who is easy with anything.
The other, is this crazy opinionated side who has been on the rage recently.
It just leaves me so confused.

Am I this easy to go along with person or...
am I this bitch that wants things going my way?
When I say anything is fine with me, do I mean it?
Do I really need to insist that it happens like this?
Compromising people to make them happy, in turn upset my inner self?
A slave to the world?

I think I need to kill this bitch in me. It’s getting out of control.

Someone stop this bitch. Please. It’s just making my life more dramatic.

Do I love the drama? Or do I not want it?

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I had dinner with my parents.
The waitress that served our dinner, her name is Butterfly Hu.
I sure hope her Chinese name is not Hu Die (han yu pin yin).

I just received my 30 ROCK SEASON 1 & 2 DVDs.
I LOVE TINA FEY!

My biatch clique is having some disputes and I’m worried. Very worried.

I’m still looking for my ideal brown leather&canvas, nice buckles, messenger bag.

I need to lose more pounds.

I'm still peeling from that sunburn. at least it's not painful anymore.

I think my lappie is going to land up in the grave soon.

I LOVE LADY GAGA!!! *SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*