It's somehow ironic i wore the Mr Happy T-shirt today.
I didn't get into the finals. It's though i was laughing at
myself.

I got the sms that confirmed that i wasn't chosen for the
finals during driving my driving lesson today.

I couldn't even drive properly. For 2 years in a row,
i've been rejected.

But why? WHY? I didn't sound good enough?
I didn't dress up properly meh? I'm too fat?
I'm ugly?

Or

Could it be the competition is so strong?
If the competition is so strong here in NYP,
what chance i have for other competitions outside?

It's such an emo day, and there i go with my Mr Happy T-shirt.
I suck.

Well. I'm going to blog abit before I go sleep.

I swear that I love MADTV!!!
Their videos are so de-stressing.

Basically MADTV is a comedy sketch programe
in the US, on FOX. And they bring up the most
ridiculous stuff that is happening in the world,
and make them into laughs, through skits by their
damn good actors and actresses.

Things they make fun of?

1) Apple Products [Steve Jobs]
iPhone Parody:

"He's an iWITCH! He must be destroyed!"

Apple iRACK? Parody:

" The iRACK looks like it doesn't want anything in there!"

FIEST 1234 Parody of Apple/Steve Jobs: They iSCREWED me!

"1,2,3,4 went to an Apple store,
Got myself an ipod,
that i paid a 100 dollars for,
And just after my purchase was done,
those Apple bastards introduced a new one!
OH oh oh..
They keep changing the iPod!
OH oh oh.. "

It's just hilarious!

other stuff they make fun of,...

2) Hollywood Celebrities
Nelly Furtado: Promiscuous girl "Syphilis Girl"

"Every Guy I sleep with says the same thing,
you've got a rash on ur ding-a-ling?"

Shakira: Whenever, Whereever "Whenever, Don't Matter"

"Time to crawl, into the mud!"

Gwen Stefani: The Sweet Escape "Aren't the Asians Great?"

"They always try something new,
like a robot that puts on ur shoe."

Hilary Duff: Beat of My Heart "Sake of My Fame"

"Have you seen Lindsay?
She's a size minus 3.
To fill up her pants,
you need 2 Nicole Richies!"

Destiny's Child: Emotion "Beyoncé"

"Who will look at the other 2,
when you have Beyoncé~~.."

Other than that..

3) TV/Reality Shows
Desperate Housewives

"What is it, Bree?
you found a airplane crashed on your forehead this morning?
Forehead?
More like a five-head?"

HEROES

"AH HA! GOT CHA!"

LOST

"I keep hearing strange noises.
*Noise*
That's it! That's the noise!"

Funny isn't it?
One last video for you all.

You have heard of Tickle me Elmo.
What about Tickle me EMO?

"I hate you too!
You're not the only one with issues!"

The stress has taken a toll on me.
I'm so tensed with everything.

But i'm sincerly grateful for the groupmates
i have for the bio-enterprise project.
All of them have been very co-operative.
Thank you guys.

I've been having mixed feelings.

there's
-i'm so stupid, idotic, clumsy- feeling,
-why can't i meet up to everyone's expectations- feeling,
-can that person come forward?- feeling,
-god, please lead and guide me- feeling,
-I'm depressed but I must stand strong- feeling,

There's much more, but i just can't describe them.

Well, back to studying.
I'm determined to pass Donny's test.


急流出血，伤口扩大，悲感疼痛，依然沉默。

The nerves are getting the hell of me again.
It's another 2 days to the auditions!
After the auditions, i need to meet up with
the Minister Gan Kim Yong.

To discuss about?

Globalisation and Employment - A Youth Perspective.

I wonder how does he even prepare for it.
I mean a few of us who are meeting him can just
shoot him any random question like?

Erm.
ok.
I don't know.

I'm still stuck in my m'sia home.
Waiting for my parents to come back from my
mum's hometown, Segamat and bring me and my
sis back to S'pore.

Lucky there's internet and my SGF notes.

Speaking about which.
The freaking SFG test is like in 2 days.

I've got a feeling of -study for what sia- mood.

Yong Chai was telling me, despite him studying very
hard for the test, he still failed.
As well like like erm, 97% of people who took the test as well?

I'll screw Donny Liang if i fail.

argh.

Even i found that to be in bad taste. *puke*

Damn the timing she set for the test at well.
I finish class at like 12pm i think.
The test is 5-6pm.

Double argh.

It's like the 5th week of school.
And i'm already getting damn stressed out.
With like piles of science papers to read,
tons of tests, with 8 projects going on at the same time.

argh.

I even went on adding my load with Orion.
For the 3rd time in 3 years i've been joining.
The first year was rather a suprise,
i got into the top 10 soloists for the finals.
althought i thought i sure did terribly then.

With great expectation, comes great disspointment.
I thought getting through the auditions was
going to be just a breeze. Was i wrong.
I didn't even pass it.

Well, i'm going to work my ass for this audition
coming up in a week or so.
I'm still deciding for the song i'm gonna perform.

Though my throat has not been giving in,
i shouted and screamed my voice horse last thursday,
watching how the the Diva of Mandopop,
A*Mei brought the house down in the indoor stadium.

It's silly but i've decided the song i'm gonna perfom
when I get into the finals, during A*mei's concert.
I'm getting so over-confident again. But i was so inspired
when she performed that song.

-------------------------------------------------------

Trying to be everyone's friend have proved to be difficult.
You've gotta try to understand everyone and how they work,
how they react to things, and how they think, and handle situations
to compromise everyone.

I'm still trying to get the hang of it.

You get so hurt when people misunderstand your intentions,
you can't help it but only to try to make amendments.

I just ask to be more patient with me.

But there are times, it's too over.
Being blamed for something you didn't do?
What the hell? I'm pissed with upmost anger.